Don't Tell

The very first time we met was in my Uncle Tony's little convenience store in Bernalillo when I was 7 and you were 5. I had walked into the store, hoping that Uncle Tony would give me some free penny candy. His brother, my Uncle Ray, winked at me and gave me about five pieces of hard candy from a small wooden barrel.You came in there with a lady who I assumed was your mom. You asked her to buy you some candy. She gave you a look that even scared me. Your lips quivered as were about to cry when you saw me. I fiddled with the candy in my hand. A tear slid down your cheek. When your mom was getting the money out of her purse to pay for what she bought, I walked and stood next to you. I followed Uncle Ray's example and I winked at you as I put one of my candies in your hand and whispered, "Don't tell."

God Has No Divine Plan

A friend in Uganda, wrote to me and told me that God has a vision for me and that I should keep praying and seeking God.

This is my response:

God talks to me every day. 

We laugh together often 

throughout each day. 

She blooms flowers for me. 

She sweetens our oranges 

and brings chirping birds to our birdfeeders. 

She dances across the sky at dawn, 

painting the sky orange, pink, and purple. 

She smiles at me at night 

in the sliver of the moon. 

She reminds me that I am a blessing 

and She works through me 

to end the suffering 

and heal the people who come to me. 

She teases me, 

reminding me not to take myself 

or life 

too seriously. 

She reminds me 

She talks to everyone's heart, 

Inspiring them to share love 

with all Her creatures. 

God also laughs 

when She hears people insist 

that She is 

a male. 

When I had my first heart attack, 

I asked God, 

“Why didn't I die? 

Do you have a plan for me? 

What is my purpose?” 

She laughed and said, 

"Mushroom, You delight me. 

I have no plan 

or purpose 

for you 

or anyone. 

Why would I need that? 

I created you out of love. 

I want you to be the best you 

you can be.

And you choose your way. 

I will help you 

because I love you. 

I have no divine plan 

for you 

or anyone. 

Does that make you nervous 

or do you see the freedom 

I have gifted you?

Continue to be 

the delight 

that you are. 

That is why 

I created you."